The First of Many

Yey! I have finally started a blog!

It has long been a dream of mine to be a blogger and today, that dream finally came true. I don’t know what took me so long to finally do this. But it took me some recent dramatic events, some bucket of tears and a huge frustration over the existing social media networks to finally realize this long-neglected dream. I don’t consider myself a good writer, although I will try to be one, and even strive to be better at it. But one thing I can be certain about is I express myself better in writing.


It has been two days since I stepped out of the social media world: deactivated my Facebook and vowed to not log in to my Tumblr, Instagram and Twitter accounts. It was hard because I’ve been active with social media since 2004, that is since the time of the now defunct Friendster. But did you ever have that feeling that you can’t breathe, that you just want to get away from all the chaos and have some quiet time for yourself? I did. So out of impulse, I deactivated my Facebook account and decided to challenge myself to have that hiatus from the social media world. It may have been a sudden decision but I think I need this break. I feel that those social media networks, particularly Facebook, has already been saturated with materials that are so irrelevant or too shallow to be posted, from people ranting about other people or their job, updating the world with everything they do, and posting too much information about their personal life. Oh! I had been guilty of all of that for the past couple of years. Also, with the intelligent idea of liking and commenting posts of friends, one can’t help but be addicted to posting about anything and everything hoping that it could gather tremendous likes and comments from friends. And yes, I had been guilty of that too! Then suddenly it hit me that maybe the things that are happening to me are somewhat influenced by social media. That maybe the reason why I can’t find a good man or I seem to be attracting the wrong kind of men is because I come across as an easy target to them? That maybe some friendships were damaged because comments and likes had been misinterpreted? That maybe people hurt me because they know too much about me? And that maybe, I was hurt because my judgment and reactions were erroneously based on what I can see on a friend’s profile? I am not sure of the answers to those but I realized that I just need to distance myself from the chaotic world of social media and reassess myself.

Ok, now you ask why am I starting this blog when this is in fact another social media network? For one, most people are not fond of reading long messages and posts. Facebook and the others are not designed for that. And I am one to post very long statuses. So Thus, blogging will work to my advantage because people will be too lazy to read, unless they are my stalker, a fellow blogger or a blog enthusiast. lol

But mostly, with a blog I am free! I can freely express my thoughts without having to worry of how people would react and judge me. Well yes, I know that readers and visitors will judge me based on what I have written, but I actually do not care. This is my blog, where you can see the reflection of my soul, the deepest contemplation of my heart and mind, and the pieces of me I am picking up and putting back together. I won’t expect you to like my posts, but you can expect me to be completely honest.

I know I will be back to that noisy social media world, as I can never resist its charm. But I need this quiet time and I will enjoy it as much as I can. So for now, I will busy myself with this blog. My topics will be just about anything that fancies my imagination, from weird observations to current activities, from random thoughts borne out of boredom to exciting destinations visited. It will be without boundaries and inhibitions, but knowing myself, it will be mostly about love: my musings about past and current heartaches, lessons learned and realizations, frustrations on my stupidity and my journey to finding and/ or waiting for The One. sigh. (Don’t tell me I didn’t try to warn you. lol)

So cheers to this first of the many blog entries I will be posting.

Let’s just hope I will be able to sustain this. Hihi…

xoxo