Oh no! This can't be happening. All of a sudden, I feel sad. I was just watching a completely normal and happy movie -- how can the animated film "Brave" make you feel depressed about being single and alone -- when this sudden surge of sadness crept through me and tears fell helplessly from my eyes. Pathetic I know, but I didn't want this. I am being attacked by the emo.
I don't know why my old friend Emo is paying me a visit now. Yes, we had been good friends, in fact, he was there in each time my heart gets broken, and it was a LOT. He was my companion in misery, my diet partner and my bed hugger, lulling me to sleep when I was crying of a broken heart. But it has been a while and it has long been over, I've moved on and my heart's already at peace. I don't want to be brought back to the past heartaches, broken promises and perfect lies. I don't want to feel the pain, the anger and the denial I felt during those times. I don't want to feel sorry for myself for failing at my relationships and for being alone. I don't want to think I am worthless and that I will no longer find love. I don't want to cry or even be sad, but well, this is what's happening right now.
This is not good, but I guess it is completely normal for alone people to feel like this once in a while. I'll just sleep through it and by tomorrow, I will be again as happy and as bright as the summer sun. But just for today, I'll just let these tears cleanse my eyes, because maybe this is what I need to see things in a clearer view.
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